Missing a person

I have been thinking , the close ones that is around me .
What if someday the person died?
Will you cry?
Will you want to be dead with that person?


Suddenly I feel really bad because I know that live and death is what humans will go through.
And i started thinking about how meaningless it was for me to live in this world , since everything was going really bad for me at that point of time.
Even if i die, it might be a good thing ,since my relationship with everyone is not really great, and when i die probably there is only so little people that i will truly miss.

But, now I feel even worst because the people around me are really such nice people, they are the people that I will really miss if someday I die. I fear death because it means that I can no longer be with the people that I enjoy being with.

Of course I will miss 'KWS' they are some of the most important people in my life.
and also the people who have been nice to me I will miss you guys dearly too.

By the way this is a emotional post , but it is not in a bad 'gothic punk rock emo way'.
I just feel that I don't often show how much I love the people around me ,so it is just an outburst of emotion.