Standing in a crowd

Standing in a crowd of average people , do you stand out?
I am blabbering rubbish again, anyway there is this guy who really stood out just now during my train ride home.He looked like a student from a secondary school or JC, wearing uniform ,having a neat hair cut carrying a school bag.He was doing this very enthusiastic cheer and keep saying something along the line of "Billy bombers! WOO! Billy bombers!" freaking loud , i heard him from 1 cabin away but i think that even from 5 cabins away his voice could be heard".He act like an enthusiastic orientation school kid!When heading toward Dhoby Gauht he was doing this insane air kick.He is not rude, he is just mentally unsound.

Ah yes! and i am going to vent my frustration !!!!!I have been wanting to blog this issue for a long time!!!
Remember the days when i was still a pathetic Springfield Secondary School student, the day when i got my N level result, i was devastated ! I could not believe that i could not even get a mere 10 points to get up to Secondary 5! Even worst,despite Singapore's strict educational system, Springfield Secondary Cheated students from our class!

What happened is, during out secondary 2 streaming exercise , they actually did a survey saying how many of you would not mind having computer application as your elective , so majority of us voted "for" to computer application.They told us that with computer application we would still be able to progress on with secondary 5 with that elective. So ,half of my class took computer application, towards the end of N level most of us are really assured about our electives result, since we thought that it was easy. However when i got my results i did not do good , i saw my best 3 subject add up to 11 points , shocked! i counted my best 3 results and i got 8, i confronted my form teacher and she too was not sure whats happening.She then directed me to another senior teacher , he told me that cpa is not a elective that can be used for N level.
I was shocked , 1st of all if this elective does not helps you in 'N' & 'O' level why the hell do you even offer it to your pupil? Also, CPA is a 4 years program, teachers had assured us that we can use the point because we are doing it in 2 years!
Its absolutely ridiculous!
I felt extremely cheated and quite hurt to a certain extend.
I confronted the Vice-Principal , about my case
guess what this high and arrogant Mr Nathan( Not Mr S.R.Nathan) said
He told be this words just because he knew that i am not going to be under his school anymore
He told me that since i got CPA as my elective , i was meant to go to ITE and that there should be no more arguments.
I was extremely frustrated at that point of time , i had total no respect for him and i told him that he is ridiculous !

I cried that day, because i care about my future.I do not want to go to ITE, i am not implying that ITE is not a good institute , instead i know that it is good.I just do not want to waste another year of my life !
I asked around a few of the act-beng guys who i am not really close with ,they actually made it into Secondary 5.They asked me my results and i told them i got 11, they told me they want to get into ITE they said that they did not want their results.I don't know how to react, i took it as a mockery, i told them to get the ITE form and sign up already.
Seriously stop being such a poser , acting like a punk ,when in everybodies eyes you are the loser.

That day i really thought through a lot, i did not know if i should go to ITE with my bunch of friends , or maybe get into a private institute for 'O' Levels.
Confused, i asked around a little, i decided to give the private institute a check and found that they had really good facilities.
My heart is set and 'O' Level here i come!

I did not regret my decision, i still remember the 1st day of school orientation at CHEC , everybody was stranger to me.I look around, tattoos,guys and girls wearing punk hair,multiple piercing all over the face,vulgaraties, all i can sense is negativity coming from almost everyone. Maybe because of that, i took in all the negativity and became negative myself.

During the 2nd day of orientation , with my orientation group i got to know this guy whom i totally forgot his name, but he was a pretty cool guy ,same age as me , he told me that i look fierce and looked like a ah beng.That was the 1st time i heard anyone say that about me, i laught along cause i though that he too looked fierce and look like a ah beng, but don't judge a book by its cover, until you really got to know a person you never really knew them at all.
We hanged out pretty well, but we got separated because we were sent to different classes,new friends soon replace each of us .

School life in CHEC was awesome, some of the best schooling days i ever spent. Everybody there was so fun, getting to really know really different people.Teachers there were extremely nice, they really take the effort to teach you, they really want to help you and they really are nice people.During my CHEC days i also received a call from Springfield , calling me to claim a award.
Not knowing what it was i took a self-proclaim leave from CHEC and went down to attend the speech day ceremony. Waste of time!because i was having long and blonde hair they did not allow me to go on stage!Few weeks later i went down to collect again, they gave me a worthless certificate of "Highest CPA in whole level" and a $20 popular voucher. Totally spit at the damn school, they think the $20 or the certificate can pay back for what they have cost me?
The private school fee is around 4k and that $20 voucher is not even a fraction of it, what a waste of time , making me run 2 trips to the school.
Back to CHEC days
It was another round of studying and muggings for exam, preparing for 'O' levels.
Soon after the year , O level results. I got 24 points which at first i wasn't pleased at all, soon i found out that not a lot of private candidate make it to a polytechnic.Many other people who heard the news that i was from a private school was also pretty surprise that i could pass.(It is a bad result for a O level pass, but i don't care what matters is that i get on with life)

So now i am in polytechnic, currently enjoying most of the time here.Reading throught other peoples blog.Posting my feelings down, and i have to say to the act punk losers in my secondary school, "Now you want to work for your future, and aim for an polytechnic,wasn't ITE your goal?"
Looking back, i did recieve a lot of criticism from my old friends saying things like " you will fail your O level", "why waste the money", maybe they do not understand, this remarks are hurtful,it pierces my ego and stabs into my self-assurance. Perhaps that is the reason that we are pulling apart.