Hi guys! this morning i was late for the committee work! i rushed down from my house to Gek Poh ville CC and managed to reach there 30 minutes late.. Opps

alright... after that vic? i think her name is "Vic,Vicky,Victoria or whatever that starts with vic .. cause everyone around her keep calling her vic!... tell me to serve from 10.30 to 2.30....and soo i served from 10.30 to 2.30 ... nice nice 4 hours of committee work.. in between i saw my cousin who is also my CGL Elaine, my mum.. and Chai Siang Lao Shi! lol Miss chai siang failed.. erm she said its her second or third time donating blood =D ... i think she got some blood problem haha..so too bad for her

so after that i went home... i used like erm 2 hours of computer... after that i have to rush down to my cousin's house-warming! i tell you they have the nicest house among all of my cousin men! They have their own parking space..a garden,a unused area, a koi pond with stepping tiles on top.. a super BIG living room! 2 cute dogs and 2 cute parrot on the 1st floor.. on the second floor there is 3 rooms.. of which 2 rooms have their own toilets and 1 with its own balcony...(by the way their rooms are all very very very big.. i think 2 or 3 times the size of my room)

And lastly
on the third floor ... there is only 1 room and 1 toilet.. so i thought that.. hmm this floor does not have much... i walked into the toilet and i see hmm small men so i walked a little deeper in.. and i saw a Big Area with a jacuzzi in it!? i was like WA! OMG! Whatever amazed language came out... So SHUANG! to have own jacuzzi and big area!
Then went to Ah-Shi[1] jie's room.. we saw a huge bed and behind the bed is a Big Balcony!!
and it will lead to the stairs of the 3rd floor...and Hui-Yi Jie say the bed is very SM... hmm and many agreed and she said that the theme of the room is gothic which i think ya.. true.. so after that i went downstairs slack around and went home...

When i reached home i came to the com and used for 15 minutes.. then my eldest bro asked me "can i use?"
So i replied"wait"
Then he went away.. and about 5 minutes later.. he came back.. and i was checking friendster incase KJ go and flood my board again..

That "eldest bro" just yelled at me i was thinking whats the problem with you
He yelled:I want to used!
i said :wait
He yelled again :HOW LONG!
frustrated me replied:Until i am done( which i already is done)
He said in a softer volume: ni yue lai yue kuai lan hor(you becoming more and more stubborn)
me : No, you call this kuai lan!? (irritated by him)
my mum came in and stopped us..
so i went to the living room allowing him to use..
and while walking out i shout :HAVE MOUTH TO SAY OTHERS ,DON'T HAVE MOUTH TO SAY ABOUT YOURSELF.
He Replied(yelling) : ya say somemore..

I ignored him

i laid on the sofa thinking
How could my cousins be fooled? all of them thought that he is the Guaiest in the family , the one who suffered most in the family, the guy who treats the family real good
but in actual fact.. they have all been decieved he is the guy who is a self-centered person, does not really care about the family, i think i suffered more then Him >.<

Being damn damn damn pissed..i was recalled that they enjoyed more life then i did.. however you say.. my dad passed away when i was so young .. my eldest bro enjoyed 4 more year of being rich... and me?..... my bros basically refuse to be more independent..My "eldest bro" say he is very independent cause he pay for his food..for me i think independent is a person who really give money to his/her's parent , pay for the electrical bill and pay for daily expenses

or in other case
stay by himself
pay for himself..

i call that independent

and i was reminded of my cousins siblings... Wenjie have 2 really loving sisters.. they shower her with love and gifts..
However when i look at my own life.. i am showered with messing table,dirty bowls and cups and Lousy attitude..

i must not deny that my 2nd bro and my mum did treat me well... but i have to say that my "eldest bro" did nothing like that..his best way of treating a person is to talk to a person normally with a smile .... i mean thats what i do all the time.. unless i am really damn pissed..

I was reminded again and again how my eldest bro threathened to beat me up .. and i will say.. go ahead i will just call the cops and i am not afraid to do it... he wll just reply.. and i am not afraid to beat you up..

then he will tell me story about how 1 of his bodybuilder friend beat a person to death and went to jail... so be it whatever

i understand not every one can understand how i am feeling now..cause you all are blessed with such good siblings.. who take care of you...yeah.. and god bless whoever is reading this post..

i belive that.. i will be delivered from this kind of life...by faith it will happen ..