Helping is to be appreciated

I am a very secular person... I always have to do something.. just to let people know that i want my own rights...
When my mum ask me to do something for her... i will do it... if she scold me for not doing.. i will not feel sorry.. in fact i will feel like its not my obligation to do that.. whatever you all may say.. i am her only help ... Like you say.. its a help not a obligation!..

Eg.Your mother ask you for money... you are not obligated to give her.. you give her because you want to..When you give her.. she find it too little.. she complain and scold you for being a unfilial child..

Bad tempered child may scold their parents and argue with them..
How about those who are nice.. bear a grudge in their heart and hate her parent everytime her parent does that

The point is.. No one should be like a parent that always rebuke their sons or daughter whenever they fail to HELP them do something.. they should really appreciate them for being willing to help... even if they did a bad job.. they have the heart... they did it for your sake... why must you be so demanding?

I am getting really frustrated with things rotating around my world.. now i want to be a person who is a little more self centered.. i don't want to be a person who is too self-less as to accept everything that is thrown to me.. i want to think for myself now.. I do not believe that i am obligated to attend to anyone..

From today onwards.. i want to do things according to myself... No one.. will have the right to rebuke me now... not my mum not my bros not anyone...

I don't thing that leaving house is a escape from a problem.. it is just a way to solve a problem... people who are forced to face their problem will end up killing those of their family...

I believe if you were to choose.. Kill or leave...
Leave will be a sure answer..

Don't think that this is a emo post..
I am just stating the fact that...

If i have to be this kind of person and that make my life hard...
I rather not.. i am already having a difficult life.. no one really understand...

No matter how close you are...
You will never understand me totally.. never will you know what i am really going through..

Think of my life.. its not been easy..

I don't wanner compare myself with those who are worst off then me..
I wanner compare myself with those who are leading a better life with a happy family..

I want to be more self-centered...
Its a bad thing i know.. i want to understand myself more... what i really want..